Monday, April 25, 2011

Mary Kay Comprised of Reggae & Other Things We Must Know....

We seek what we know, who we are, like minded happy individuals because at the end of the day, we all seek one common goal: this goal is be loved.

"Like attracts like."

We are those that are expressive, tender, caring, classy, sassy, proper,hip-hop, hypnotic, exotic yet robotic. I believe you have mastered my drift.

As the wonderful Shawna Shannon Jones says "everyone evolves at their own pace," which is true and, I couldn't agree more. Just like age is a number, down or up the line we all trangress at different rates no matter the age or bodily form.
We are who we are!There is nothing wrong with being who you are, and I suggest that every human being take light of that papable love of themselves and own, work on it out with your self and, most importantly "act like you know who you are at all times because if you can't control anything, you can control the very person you are!" This speaks voulmes and every soul out here in this Universe has their breaking point. Everything measure adds up, and it all takes time. There are people out there who will literally try to test you, push you because they believe that you aren't who you say you are, you're supposed to become like them, and the list goes on and and on (this is because they aren't happy with who they are, where they are going with their lives). This is a negative force. But, you shouldn't let it affect you, you are who are, and you should embrace that mold. I'm just stating the obvious because it is a very special mold, and one shouldn't let the next man take that light in your eyes away from thee. This could happen with family, friend and all sorts of colleagues though, words are powerful, it is up to you to ultimately define who you are.

Emphasis: Something happened this weekend with a cousin of mine, with whom I was visiting. Actually, I was visiting my Aunty and he happened to be staying there with her. It was a Saturday morning and, I was getting ready for a film class at 1:30pm. I was excited for the day ahead and what was to spring forth. However, something pushed me back a few notches because I took it upon myself to let one of my relatives borrow my umbrella, to go to a store around the corner which ended up taking them an hour to do. My mood had begun to get overtly anxious, so I decided to make some tea and toast for breakfast, (to calm my nerves) then ask my 1st cousin (my oldest 1st cousin) a question (in regards to what had transpired with my relative whom I let borrow the umbrella) and, the response given wasn't too kind. Therefore, I decided to just walk away and, let that person be. I let it be because I knew my impatience had started growing there upon my soul: and perhaps it had been time for me to sit down and consume my tea and toast. However, my cousin decided that he wanted to tease me calling me names like "Rihanna Head, You have your mother's teeth," incessantly which had become insulting to me, at that point. Then he decided that he would try and pick me up by my legs and try to throw me, (I didn't let that happen)and tap me on my head (more than 2x) which was also uncalled for!!! I am a young woman and I strongly believe that I should at all times be respected, and that kind of crude behavior in those stages will not be tolerated at any level. Everyone has their breaking point and I just couldn't take his BS anymore, so I ended up calling him a Bitch and he kept saying I was Bipolar because I am pisces which was absolutely ludicrous. At this stage in the game, I left him alone and I walked away because I believe respect is a 2 way street, and he should respect the woman that I am, as I respect the "persona/man" that he is. All the while, I did apologize to my Aunty for lack of respect in terms of language, but I had nothing to say to my cousin. I believe that he should know better at 28 years of age, this is not how you play with a 25 year old woman who happens to be your cousin. You keep your hands to yourself, and you respect any human being when they tell you they aren't in the mood for such behavior. This turned out to be a plethora of chaos and I happened to realize that this is what I don't need. Although I haven't seen this cousin in a very long time, I was happy I did but, I do know that he will always be who he is and I will be who I am. The one thing you shouldn't do is cross the line because there happens to be boundaries in any relationship formed. I am a female and he is a male, a male should never hit a woman just as a woman should never hit a male: its wrong! It is what we call unjust behavior. From that moment on, I let it ride. I let it ride because although I do know that, I know better than to let someone take hold of my spirit in a negative manner and resort to such vulgarious profanity was wrong too. Even though, I have been known to curse quite a few times in my life, for I am NO angel, but I'd only go through this teasing formula with the man I love. Then again the "MAN" I LOVE wouldn't treat me in this manner. I say this with the utmost positivity because I know that I possess the power to pick him myself. I may not have control over everything but, I can control what attracts my inner spirit. This in whole, speaks voulmes. The words that come out of your mouth have power, they can hurt you but, you shouldn't give anyone else the power to drive you up the wall. As a human being, you deserve so much more than this, and I am well aware that I do just as you too. We are all imperfect souls but, this very altercation has taught me a very valuable lesson...

"everyone isn't meant to travel through life with you, whether family, friend or foe: at times the ones you love can be your worst enemies but, also it can be like this with friends too. You just really never know. We are all imperfect!!!

The message that I am trying to convey is that even though all of this transpired in the very beginning of my day,

"I still had a wonderful day!!!!!"

I went to my film class, at Berkeley College, and listened to an influential lecture from the Professor. I ran errands, paid some bills, smiled and had the chance to experience more out of my life. The day before this, I had a visit with my Aunt Denise and, I have come to find that I miss the Kingdom Hall more than I miss any God for Saken Church. This is truly a surprise but, maybe I just have special memories which I love holding onto because I love life, and people but one has to know which to stray away from yet which to keep. Everyone isn't always good for you no matter the relation. I was brought to life into a very dysfunctional family, who probably has no idea who I really am yet abhor the fact that I am too damn expressive. The one thing I do know is that I have those who LOVE me and those who don't. This is fine. I also, have a grandmother from my Daddy's side of the family (when I say Daddy, I mean my stepfather) who gives me LOVE 24/7, I have a father who gives me love unconditionally too (biological) at all times along with his wife (at her own pace), and my paternal grandmother thinks of me as her world, (I am her BABY)and I am also blessed with Angelina Grantham who has been an Aunty and Mother to me since the age of 12.5 (She LOVES me for me) and I LOVE so much so even if I don't receive the type of love that I seek from my "Mother," guess what???
I'm always gonna love that woman ten times harder because I can, no matter what is said (whether I say it or the blind man says it). I believe that everything and, everyone is placed into your life for a reason. I feel like, where would I be without, Big Andy (My Daddy though the relationship was unhealthy, he did possess family values), Fred (My Father, I'm always his little girl), Angelina Grantham (MY Mom) and the list continues. "Nothing that roams this planet ever ceases to amaze me, for we all grow, tell white lies or what we wish to tell, work and develop at our own speed but, from ashes to ashes, dust to dust we are so we either move a level up or down," and we all want LOVE. However, love is more of a need than a want! This is the beauty of it all!

Nothing that was said or done provoked me to stop being happy with life. To stop moving on and up the ladder. "

At the end of the day, you are what you eat yet you are what you believe!!!!!!"

I had faith yet believed so much that I ended up having the most wonderful evening with my Aunt Kemba Green and my cousins, at "Our Mary Kay Make-up Test Trial Night," for Women of Color as I call it. I never let the confrontation that occurred during the morning hours to deprive of my poignant spirit but, I did go on to let it empower my soul!! I am worth more than an occassional "I LOVE YOU." -Trey Songz-
I am glad that I know it because I didn't fall or try to become something that I am not- like letting someone force me into believing I should become a stripper or a porn star, (I knew people like that)marrying for citizenship, dating an old man to fufill his needs and again, I've come in contact with individuals like this but I kept on moving. I knew better, because no matter what your parents are, or what people may say that doesn't mean that is who you are! You are what you believe, and a trillion times better. This is what emotes from within my noggin every single day of my life. Let's just say during this Mary Kay Business Venture/Makeup Night with my Aunty was motivational. We saw the beauty in ourselves from within. My cousins and I have tried new things, new makeup, laughs and even laughs at me because I can almost always be too happy "And you have to ask, Kyemma, are you drunk....?" and I respond "No, I am just really, really, really HAPPY.." (I LOVE being "HAPPY" and hugging the people I love, even though I do love wine, and have been drunk before in my life.) It is what it is.

This is a beautiful feeling yet it felt great to support my Aunty in all of her ventures especially this one. It feels wonderful because I want her to know

"That YOU ARE a VERY BEAUTFIFUL WOMAN and there's nothing in this life that you can't TAKE DOWN!!!!"

"Nothing is IMPOSSIBLE, the very word says I'M POSSIBLE.." -Audrey Hepburn-

My Aunty is beautiful and the fact that she's gone on to test her products on her bratty neices and cousin, shows how much she really does love us, (even when my BEST Friend calls and I give her the pep talk) and my Aunty still tolerates it. That's love, the jokes, the smiles, the makeup: it equates with love. This is beautiful and you can take a look for yourself and define your beauty at her site,, in order to experience your own divine beauty!

This is return is all about support, encouragement, beauty and, respect of all men and woman. This is what heals, for the good life is the best life with friends, marriage, family yet L.O.V.E.
You can take hold of what you desire...

After that night we all desired dancing and we danced all night long to reggae (Keman, Crystal and I) while Aunt Kem recorded us. This brought me back to the time where I would dance to reggae as a child with my Daddy and family, (stepfamily) and I was 8 years old, my brother and I were dancing with our cousins/aunts/uncles/grandma-ma, this was the time that I learned how to wine and everyone was happy, as they drank their Heinekeins and us kids just laughed.

This was a memory: there are good memories and there are bad memories but, whatever you choose to hold onto makes a world of difference. Just because there is a sad, hurtful memory doesn't mean that you can't open your eyes to assist other human beings, who've experienced the same yet the worse. Communication has the power to heal the soul within itself. Nothing is too great that you can't see with your third eye and the mind...


The faith is the best part of life and, not knowing is even better because whatever is meant for you to have will be....

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